VENTING

     I cannot even begin to describe how angry I get with myself for continuing to try so hard to accommodate others. It starts from a place of genuine concern and desire to be helpful. Then it festers into growing resentment over lost time, lost opportunities, lack of reciprocity, and lack of respect or appreciation. My perpetual problem is that I still give a damn. I wish I could learn to stop, but i know and fear what i would become if i ever did.